Introduction

This is my first official blog as a mother :) 
Its funny how the mother in you is born when the life of your child is. As your child grows and develops so does your wisdom and skill as a parent. Also growing is your ability to love, forgive, understand, trust yourself, your heart, but also your fears. Being a mother is the greatest gift and the most painful pleasure. You love this child that has come into your life with all that you have yet you want to protect it from all that you know. Its thrilling and terrifying. Exciting and saddening. You love to watch them grow and meet each milestone yet you cry at each step they make towards independence. I read somewhere that motherhood is the longest goodbye. Because as the mother you are preparing yourself from very first breath for the day they'll leave the nest and go their own way, hoping that they always find their way back home. And home being where mother is. At least thats what i hope for Chase. I love him so much it hurts, but its worth all the pain loving him. :) 
The day i found out i was pregnant i was terrified that i wouldnt be good enough for Chase. And i still carry that fear with me everyday. So each day i wake with the same goal to be the very best mommy i can be . My biggest wish and desire for Chase is that i surround him with so much love its all he knows. 
I started this blog as a release of thoughts, emotions, experiences, good times, and tough times. Hoping this aids me in my journey as a mother and as an individual.